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Bob Ong Quote

Ahhhh… you’re probably thinking, yet another emo post. Well, yes it is.

To be completely honest, the past few months have been pretty crazy in the love (or infatuation) department and I’ve been trying to put everything into words but I always end up with nothing but lyrics or quotes I can somewhat relate to. I still can’t find words actually — maybe because my mind’s still a bit confused and I still haven’t fully confronted my feelings yet. Sooner or later, I would have to.. and by then, I can probably share a bit of that part of myself to you.

But here’s what I can say for sure — I need to reset. I need to constantly remind myself that I deserve more. That I should leave something for myself. And that I should never, ever settle for less.

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Sober – Jennifer Paige

Girl meets boy and girl goes crazy
Boy backs away, she gets her heart broken
No words are spoken
Boy comes back and acts
As if everything is cool
Soon she’s got him back on a pedestal
She only sees what she wants to see
Love is blind, love is so misleading

I see the light, oh what a light
And I am sober..
All that you served to me
No longer will I drink it in
I took the time to think it over
I see the you, I had never knew
Now it’s finally sinking in
I am sober, I am sober..

Girl wakes up and smells the coffee one day
Realizes she’s on her own again
All alone again
Boy takes every opportunity
To play on every insecurity
Get her back on track
She’s in a daze, back in the fire
But will she cave into her old desires?

I see the light, oh what a light
And I am sober..
All that you served to me
No longer will I drink it in
I took the time to think it over
I see the you I had never knew
Now it’s finally sinking in
I am sober, I am sober..

I see the light, oh what a light
She’s in a daze, back in the fire
But will she cave into her old desires?

I see the light, oh what a light
And I am sober..
All that you served to me
No longer will I drink it in
I took the time to think it over
I see the you I had never knew
Now it’s finally sinking in
I am sober, I am sober..

I see the light, oh what a light
And I am sober..
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Barely Breathing – Duncan Sheik

I know what you’re doing, I see it all too clear
I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears
You really had me going, wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far

I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn
Well, it must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born
There’s not much to examine, there’s nothing left to hide
You really can’t be serious if you have to ask me why
I say goodbye

‘Cos I am barely breathing and I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding, imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting, a fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, it’s worth the price
The price that I would pay

Everyone keeps asking, what’s it all about?
I used to be so certain and I can’t figure out
What is this attraction? I only feel the pain
There’s nothing left to reason and only you to blame
Will it ever change?

‘Cos I am barely breathing and I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding, imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting, a fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, it’s worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I’m thinking it over anyway,
I’m thinking it over anyway

I’ve come to find, I may never know
Your changing mind, is it friend or foe?
I rise above or sink below
With every time you come and go
Please don’t come and go

‘Cos I am barely breathing and I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding, imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting, a fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, it’s worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I’m thinking it over anyway
I’m thinking it over anyway

I know what you’re doing,
I see it all too clear

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Busy Mode *ON*

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Sorry folks, I haven’t been writing the past couple of weeks — it’s been a bit hectic at work. I haven’t been this super busy in a very, very long time. Well, to say that I’m busy is probably an understatement.

I’m hoping to find time to write in the coming weekends (because weekdays/workdays are just really not possible).. please come back soon ;)

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Not-So-Ordinary Night

It’s a natural high
Can’t help but smile
With just a mere hello
All my senses seem to go

I’m crazy, maybe
To fall in and out of love
But it just seems fitting
To be weirded out by this feeling..

Of love, if that’s what it is
Or well, might be something in between
All I know is that I’m giddy and funny and light
In this not-so-ordinary night

And what could a dose
Of caffeine possibly lack
Or cover up the rush of
Something i’ve been holding up

It’s an endless series of hello’s and goodbye’s
Of wishful thinkings, daydreaming and deep sighs
Makes no sense to go back but then again
I have the urge to have this feeling..

Of love, if that’s what it is
Or well, might be something in between
All I know is that I’m giddy and funny and light
In this not-so-ordinary night

Tried to fight it
Tried to hide it
But here I am still
Tried to leave you
Tried to forget you
But then, there’s a feeling..

Of love, if that’s what it is
Or well, might be something in between
All I know is that I’m giddy and funny and light
In this not-so-ordinary night

I’m giddy and funny and light
I’m floating and smiling and in flight
I hope I dream about you
In this not-so-ordinary night

Originally written on Nov. 1, 2004, 12:o8 AM
Source: http://icecroft-compositions.blogspot.com/2004/11/not-so-ordinary-night.html

(NOTE: Wrote this poem a few years ago.. I’m quite amused that it looks like lyrics from a song. Maybe when I know how to make a decent melody, I can actually turn this into a song :) And well, I’m also surprised how the words hold true with my life now ♥)